Sunday, April 29, 2012

Fostering their loves

Each year we spend countless hours watching Chuckie playing his sports or cheering him on with all the different things that he enjoys.  This year will be no different and we enjoy every second. 

Jada does takes dance classes and because there isn't much of a chance to really cheer her on, I feel like we aren't as involved in her love of dance.  She also is in the school art club and she loves all sorts of art....painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.  She is good at it too.  She is far better at it than I am. 

We already signed Chuckie up for a football camp this summer to help improve his skills and to have some extra football fun.  It is not cheap and we do it because it is something he loves. 

Jada brought home a paper for a summer art camp.  It is located less than 10 minutes away from home and it is for one week. We can choose which month she could go.  I asked her if it was something that she would like to do because if we are paying for Chuckie to participate in a camp that he enjoys, why shouldn't we do the same for Jada? 

She has never asked to do anything like this even though she probably really wanted to.  She worries too much about us spending any money on her.  She deserves this.  She deserves to have this time to do something that she really loves and enjoys.  So, I brought it up to her and asked her if it was something she would like to do.  She was surprised I asked and said that, yes, she would. 

I am excited for her because I am like her.  If I want to do something, I am too cautious and I never ask or pursue it because I almost feel like it is asking too much.  I know in my heart that it isn't but it's just how I'm wired and unfortunately, for Jada, she is too. 

Each of my children are so very dear to me and if there is anything I can do to make them happy (within reason) I will do it.  I want my kids to know that I am here to cheer them on, encourage them and allow them to grow in the areas that they enjoy and want to grow in.  I don't care what it is that they want to do, I will be there, whether it is dance, art, football, basketball and maybe even lacrosse.  I'm still on the fence about that one!

Lincoln is young and really has no interest in playing any sports just yet but when he's ready, so am I. 

Growing up, I was involved in cheerleading and my parents didn't really take an active part in being there to watch me or cheer me on, so to speak.  They worked a lot and maybe just didn't have too much extra time to commit to being there. Iknow that cheerleading isn't the greatest thing to sit there and watch or encourage but it was what I was excited about and into.  I don't have any ill feelings toward my parents about it, I truly don't.  I just want my kids to look up and see me there and know that I am there. 

I am so excited about this summer and all the possibilities with my kids.  They are growing too fast and I need this time with them as much as they need the time with me.  We have a lot of fun things planned for this summer.  Pool days, zoo trips, museums, science centers, picnics, long walks and hikes, camping and anything else our hearts desire!  This is OUR summer and we are doing it OUR way! 

We will be attending football camp and art camp and I couldn't be any happier to take them!!


Sunday, April 22, 2012

Little Bit of This, Little Bit of That

As each day passes, I am reminded that it is one day closer to my last day at my job.  While I do have an at-home job lined up, I am trying to think of other ways to make some extra money. 

I am already babysitting two kids a few days a week in the evenings to make some extra cash but that is not really something that I will be able to continue to do.  The one girl I can continue but the baby, I cannot.  Our weeknight schedules get so hectic in the late summer due to football practices and dance classes.  I can take the girl with me because she is older and it's not a problem at all.  The baby is not too easy though.  I would need to get a new carseat for him and let's face it, dragging an 18 month old everywhere when he is already a crabby boy makes it all the harder.  I am thinking that I will have to stop watching him by the end of June.  I am thinking end of June because although football doesn't start until the end of July, I would really like to have my summer free.  That may seem selfish but I have come to the point in my life where I am not trying to please everyone else.  I have spent too many years doing that.  I am doing this for myself! 

He comes around 3:15pm and I don't want to be out somewhere with my kids (zoo, pool, museum, etc.) and have to hurry home and cut our days short because we need to be back to get him.  I know that sounds bad but it is what it is.  This summer is for my kids too. 

There are a few things that I have been thinking of doing on the side to make some extra money but I'm not sure how well they would do so I don't want to mention them just yet.  I got a few books from the library that may help me.  I love the idea of not having a boss and doing things my way.  There is something so attractive about being my own boss. 

Chuck still isn't back to work and I know a lot of people have questions as to why in the world I would quit working while he is also not working but I know we will be fine.  We always are.  I will be working, possibly long hours but I will be home and I can be there when my kids need me.  I can be there to see them off to school, to attend a school function, to go on a field trip, to take them to doctor in the morning if need be.  Yes, we are taking a gamble, taking a risk but I believe in  my heart that it is a risk worth taking because my family is worth it! 

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Moving Forward

It's crazy how quickly time gets away from you......

Here's a quick rundown of what's going on:

*  We leave for vacation in seven weeks!  We are spending a week in the Outer Banks of North Carolina with our family and friends for a total group of 25 people.  It's a crazy thing going with that many people but it is a blast!  I am the one that organizes it, finds the house, does the financial crap and sets most of it up.  We have a pre-vacation meeting to settle on bedrooms, meals, days that we cook, etc.  Each family takes an evening and is in charge of making dinner for the house!  It works out so nicely because each family only has to cook one night while on vacation!  We usually take the first night so that we can sort of show everyone what we mean and so that we have it out of the way.  The day we get there, a few of us girls go grocery shopping and pick up all the groceries for the week including all the stuff for each dinner.  Each family puts in so much for groceries for the week.  I love doing this and I even make packets for each family so that they have all the information that I have.  No secrets or exclusions from anyone.  I cannot wait!! June 9th cannot come soon enough!

* Lincoln is going next Tuesday to a satellite location of our Children's Hospital to have dental surgery.  He needs extensive work done on all of his molars and another tooth so they felt it best to do it while he is under anesthesia.  I know he is going to be in great hands but I am so nervous for my baby boy to go through this.  I know he won't know anything is going on while they do it but I hate to think of him in pain and being under anesthesia.  I'm already thinking of taking a sick day the following day to spend it with him while he recovers! Worried mama bear :)

* After a lot of consideration, I have decided to leave my job.  We found out that my building is going to close and my cafe would, in turn, be shutting down.  Therefore, I would be moving to another location where I am needed.  I had been thinking of leaving my job long before this since Lincoln will be going to kindergarten and the other kids are going to be in school.  I will be needed at home more than I could ever be needed at work so I planned on leaving.  I just figured I would leave at the end of the summer or early fall when the cafe closes to make it easier on my boss.  Yes, to make it easier on my boss, not for my own benefit.  This is how I get myself in trouble, I worry more about others than myself.  Anyway, I decided that it is time for me to do something for myself and my family and so I put in my notice that June 22nd will be my last day.  It is bittersweet, as I love some of my customers and they do make me feel like a friend.  Some of them I will miss but it doesn't equate to the joy I see in my kids' eyes to have me home.  The kids are so excited and happy to know that we will get to spend our entire summer together doing whatever we want.  Can you say swimming, zoo trips, camping, museums, science center, etc?!  I need this as much as my kids do.

* Chuck still is not back to work so we will get more time together, which has really been lacking lately.  I am so busy on a daily basis that we never have time to ourselves which is so crazy.  I don't know when he will be going back to work.  He doesn't know when he will go back to work.  I know people wonder how we are making this work but it does.  He is still collecting unemployment and he is taking care of house and home, kids included.  He gets the kids up and off to school and takes Lincoln to and from school.  He does laundry, cleaning, dishes, yard work, fixups at home, etc.  He has become quite the at home dad and I am beyond proud of him.  He is doing things that he has never done before like preschool field trips and teaching the kids things.  I was always there for all of that while he was always working so this switch has been beneficial for him, mentally and emotionally. 

So, there are huge changes coming to our family.  I can't fully express my excitement and joy at all of it!

I hope to keep up with this a little more moving forward but I can't promise anything.  I'm still running at a million miles an hour....can't wait for that to change too!   I have lots more to say but gotta hop off to get a few things done around here before bed!  Goodnight all!